31/12

(On a train to a new year's party)

There is a group of friends sitting next to me. They look in the early 20's, they are quite excited, certainly in waiting for midnight. They are all carrying bags that look quite heavy. They do not stop chatting and -at times, buzzing about family and same age boys and girls.
One of them has just suggested to write on a piece of paper a bad memory of this 2010 which is coming to an end. "We will then burn it before midnight so we will not bring the bad memory in the new year". Her friends agreed.
"Good idea" I thought and I agreed too.
So i started thinking to all the bad things that occured to me in these past twelve months.
Not and easy task reviewing facts and people. So much happened and I was starting to struggle in trying to disentangle the hank of situations that I have experienced in this 2010.
After some time, I surrendered.
I was unable to choose the worst memory of all.
All along this 2010 I kept on stepping of my feet, stumbling over, lacking attention and a self fulfilling direction.
I may simply write "2010: the year of missed chances and wrong decisions". Then I'll fold the piece of paper up , take the lighter from my pocket and burn my bad memory.

For the first time in my life I have a new year resolution.