End of a friendship

It happens in life. And it just happened to me.
It happens that you have to close doors and leave people behind you.
It is for you own safety and well-being.
It happens because you had enough of lies, months of lies.
Because you cannot get over the disappointment caused by two of your closest friends (they are three in total).
It happens because you cannot forget and you don’t seem able to forgive. Or maybe you don’t want to forgive because a year later, it still hurts.

I have been so angry, so mad at them. They deceived me, hide from me and accused me without giving me the chance of simply explaining, not even defending myself. And they judged without knowing, pointing their fingers at me and saying “Guilty! Capital punishment!”. Like in the Middle Ages, during the Inquisition.
And every time I asked for explanations and tried to sit there, take time to talk and understand.. well, I was told that it was all going on in my head and it was my problem. And they were not available for help.

But you cannot lie for the rest of your life. And once I discovered the truth, one of the two even denied it. Just like when a child is caught eating chocolate: hands and mouth are covered with the sweet treat but still he would say “No! I didn’t eat the chocolate!”. I felt sorry for my friend, for her incapacity of admitting what kind of person she really is (or likes to be for the time being?).

The other tried to sew up the tear but I always felt she was bringing in pretexts rather than grounded points of view. (When there is a lack of trust, whatever the other may say will always sound fake).

The funny thing is that I don’t feel different, I mean, I don’t feel I am missing something/someone. I feel like they stopped existing long time ago.It is all over now. Let’s turn the page.